Fall has officially arrived

Fall has officially arrived. I realized this morning that I've been living in a constant winter since we found out about Sarah. This January it will have been 2 years since we stepped into the doctor's office and heard the diagnosis of death for our child. Seasons have come and gone and my senses have only picked up on the cold, damp tears of winter. 2 years of winter.

But this morning...this morning I woke up and smelled fall in the air. My skin experienced the cold northern winds and my heart moved forward. This isn't to say that I haven't walked through some healing, experienced joy and laughter and felt the warmth of the sun. I have lived and enjoyed life, but to be honest...I literally didn't notice a change in seasons. It all felt and looked the same to me. But this morning, the seasons have come alive again and I am no longer wrapped up in my winter coat.

I've come so far in this journey of healing...thank God for a change in the weather of my heart. I can hear a song of passion starting to flow through my blood again...warming my heart and steadying my soul.

Oh to feel again....welcome fall, I've missed you.